foidla:
there is a difference inbetween being suicidle and avoiding suicide.avoiding suicide is on made up minds and feels sickly.thats where i was 1988
foidla:
if i go higher and take charge and if i go negative i land myself in my personality which is suicidle and the programme for death
foidla:
lets face the truth i am a suicidle, i was there at 18and i am still there. i will be able to work at it
foidla:
this is what still bodders me.1988 at 18 i made my independence in a suicidle state of mind.covering it up with doing exiting things the following 10 years.my suicidle personality was always underlining,needing to be the boss in charge,really over psychop
foidla:
i have too high expectations of myself and i want a social life.too high expectations and social life dont go together.it has got to be one or the other and i want to fit in.i hate feeling alone
foidla:
thats probably why i cant ask for help from a psychologist. there is a good chance that they are doing it for their own success not for to help peoples r
foidla:
fainting spells are emotionaly dependence on psychopaths(high level of anxiety , being hyper ocd and perfectionistic is mentaly dependend on psychopaths)
foidla:
the only way of moving on is knowing this.there is resibonsibility peoples die of this.free expression can put a stop to suicide and knowing that this is no weakness
